Reflections 2010

I was just reading a great blog and was inspired to visit my own. Except...ha!...I don't know what to say. It's the first of March and my birthday's in a week, literally. This little baby could never fathom at the time, that she would be, decades from this picture, laying down in her Manhattan apartment where she spent most of her adult life, on her laptop, contemplating getting older. All she knew was that some weirdo made her look like an old Russian lady and is making funny faces. I think. I laugh when I see this picture because I notice my nose has no bridge. This is a big deal to Filipinos. If you've got a nose bridge, then it's a good thing (centuries of colonization makes "wanting to look like westerners" habits die hard). I did not. Oh, I have one now, but you know, I grew into it.

What amuses me about this, my birthday week, is that I am so busy with other things that I will be doing most of my celebrating the week afterward. Which I guess is fine, but it feels weird. "A toast! Happy birthday! When's your birthday?" "A week ago." "...oh! Well, happy birthday!" Something's a little off about that. But you know what; I'll need it. I'll need that week after to continue celebrating because it'll help the...transition, I guess.

I have a new favorite bar. Favorite because it's big, comfortable, the clientele isn't cliquey, and they have a great selection of scotch. It's also conveniently in the middle of town. Perfect, really.

I napped right next to my cat this evening. I didn't plan to nap but was so groggy all day and I walked into the bedroom where the USA/Canada Olympic hockey game was on. Oscar was on the bed snoozing and I laid right down next to him sideways across the bed and snoozed too. I think we were in the same position, as well. He doesn't like it when I smother him with affection but I can't help myself. He's got more tolerance for it as he's gotten older.

My god, I started this blog in...2005? I was a different person then. Different, but the same. But much different. It's amazing how much there is to learn about...well, everything. But mostly how to best take care of myself. You think you know everything when you're in your 20's. And then the rest of your life is spent destroying that notion, getting humbler and humbler. Yet stronger.

I look forward to practicing Reiki in the near future. I'm new to it, and it will definitely mark this new chapter of my life. I wish to be more in touch with my metaphysical side. And I suppose I'll sign this post off by saying what I pictured saying when I started this post several paragraphs ago: I want to go on an adventure. And I want to be paid handsomely doing so. Bring it on, Year of the Tiger. :)