Having purpose

I'll be practicing Reiki on my first real person this week. I'm really excited about this. I feel like I have a natural affinity for helping bring calm energy to a person, and I look forward to becoming more in touch with my metaphysical and intuitive self. I'd already printed out very formal-looking documents for myself in preparation for a session as well as a post-session to-do list.

The thing, however, that will be a challenge to me, is the ideal behavior a couple days before any session to cut out meat, refined sugar, coffee/tea, and alcohol from my diet. Now, it may not always be 100% doable. For instance, I have an already-scheduled tea date with friends on the day before my session. But it felt good to volunteer to bring something sweet to the soiree, and find a vegan tea cake, of all things, not made with refined sugar. I also generally eat meat at least once a day; and although I don't drink often, I like to always have the option. I kept having to remind myself today not to reach for certain things I craved. Grilled chicken salad. Scotch. And it would be interesting, my reaction.

First I'd be sulky about it. Like, why should I do this to myself? Is it really necessary to be free of all this stuff to be the best channel of good energy? Then the answer would come: yes. It is. Then a new feeling would emerge, one of purpose. Even when I lost 25 pounds a couple years ago, I did it without cutting any of this stuff out. But I like the idea of having a purpose, and of restriction as discipline and a means to an end. What will it be like to say to myself, "Okay, go out with your friends that night. You can't drink, though. You will be able to drink two days later," once a week or something? I think I'd like the structure. We'll see. In the meantime, I've been able to refrain from what I want to refrain from. Maybe it will get easier as time goes on, and then I'll have a new way of looking at food, and life, and discipline, and purpose. Maybe I'll help myself raise my own vibrational frequency. Meaning, I'll be clearer. That's a good goal to have.