Time takes time

I'll never know why
I'll never know how much
I'll never know what if

Moving through
Pushing through
Crawling through
Crying through

I'm told there's a light
Past this tunnel
I've seen it before
So it must be true
But it's hard to believe
In the darkest chamber
This tunnel goes for miles
Or does it?

I welcome that light
And my twinkling eyes
Can't force it
Can't rush it
Beat up
Beat down

Anger
Silence
Regret
Resentment
Mourning what never was
Fantasy You = awesome
Tender
Loving

Real You = ?

Anger.

Silence.

Surrender

Detachment

Perspective

My smile again.

What's that light?