Going with the flow means...

...taking it one step at a time.
...trusting your instincts.
...having faith in yourself.
...letting people know what you need right now.
...accepting help.
...saying "Yes, and..."
...having a sense of humor.
...plunging in now, intellectualizing later.
...discovering your own strength.
...honoring your feelings.
...feeling the love.

Change

It's hard...
Wanting everything to change
And not wanting anything to change.

It's confusing...
Wishing others were more evolved
And knowing I have a long way to go.

It's frustrating...
Taking risks
And hiding
At the same time.

I don't know what to do next.
I don't know how to navigate my future.
I want it to look different.
And I want it to stay the same.

I want to want different things.
I want the things I did to be okay.
I want the choices I made to be the right ones.
I don't want to know otherwise.
I don't want to be devastated at the truth.
I don't want to fail.
But this fear keeps me from searching.
Deeper.

Fat and sweaty

You were a hottie back then.
Now, you're just fat and sweaty.
And I'm glad.

Time takes time

I'll never know why
I'll never know how much
I'll never know what if

Moving through
Pushing through
Crawling through
Crying through

I'm told there's a light
Past this tunnel
I've seen it before
So it must be true
But it's hard to believe
In the darkest chamber
This tunnel goes for miles
Or does it?

I welcome that light
And my twinkling eyes
Can't force it
Can't rush it
Beat up
Beat down

Anger
Silence
Regret
Resentment
Mourning what never was
Fantasy You = awesome
Tender
Loving

Real You = ?

Anger.

Silence.

Surrender

Detachment

Perspective

My smile again.

What's that light?

Cleft chin

Don't see much of them lately
Not like yours
Almost like a cartoon
But sexy
Multi-racial face
So young
So.
Young.
I couldn't be old enough to be your mom
Could I?
Nah
I ain't that old
Am I?
What are you reading?
Where are you going?
Like the leather jacket
It suits you
Well.
Here I am
Across from you
Trying not to stare
Oh, this is your stop.
(Crap)
Enjoy your day
Tender vittle.

That's what I'm talkin' about

Lets101 - Dating Free Online

Haiku corner: Growth spurt

It's been quite a year
Can't quite grasp the lessons yet
But they sure are huge

I've been so busy
I don't know what's happening
Outside of my world

Reassurance is
Something I must give myself
Only from within

I understand grief
The being fine then sobbing?
I must embrace it

I feel so different
I've become the butterfly
Pretty and naive

Why do I check out?
Everybody waits for me!
Get it together!

Rose-colored glasses
You forced me to rip them off
What do I do now?

Once I bared my soul
I felt much closer to you
Could finally sleep

You are teaching me
Whatever I need to learn
School is in session

Can it really be
The things I always wanted
I don't want at all?

Has HE been at rehearsal?

I'm used to getting spam e-mails telling me how I can enlarge my penis. Who doesn't want to enlarge their penis? So, I get these e-mails a lot. But not until today had I received an e-mail actually from Penis. MY penis? You know when your actual penis starts sending you an e-mail you need to pay attention. The subject line was "better performance." Maybe my penis is telling me how to be more truthful in my acting? Hm.